Monday, December 3, 2012

Romance in the streets of London



Romance in the streets of London
David’s boyfriend hugged him and kissed him gently on his forehead. David had tears in his eyes, so had his boyfriend.
“Don’t cry, David. This is a huge chance for you. You deserve this, and you’ll only be gone for a few days. We’ll see each other soon. I love you.”
“I love you too, Chuck. I love you so much.”
They felt sad, even though David was only away for London for four days. They had spent every awake minute together the last two years and weren’t used to be apart. A tear escaped from David’s eye, it ran down by his cheek and Chuck gently kissed it away.
“Baby, you have to go. You have to be at your gate in ten minutes.”
“Okay, I call you when I get to the hotel. Even if it’s five in the morning here. I love you.”
“I love you too. Now go, you can’t miss this great opportunity.”
They kissed for a few seconds. The kissed tasted good bye of the tears who was leaving David’s eyes. When their lips parted, David left without saying a word and went through the security check. When he was clear he bought a bottle of Coke and went to his gate.
“I already miss you, sexy.”
He sent that message to Chuck when he was on the plane. He turned it off after he got the message that it was in Chuck’s inbox. He didn’t listen to the stewardess when she told them what to do in case of emergency. He already knew all this, He had flown so many times before and knew everything about it. He thought about Chuck. The great sex they had the night before, the huge breakfast they had this morning and the sweet kisses in the airport.  He wanted Chuck with him. He wouldn’t make it on his own.
He was a singer and was going to do his first performance and interview in Europe. He had never been to Europe before. But he was excited to see all the things in London. He hadn’t so much free time, he had four interviews scheduled and two performances in a mall and one in a hotel. That was pretty much all he had to do. The only free time he had was when he arrived to London and when he was sleeping.
He fell asleep after an hour and he woke up again when a steward poked him on his shoulder. After 15 minutes they landed at Stansted. The only baggage he had was the hand baggage so he left as fast as he could. It was 1PM in Canada when he left, it took him about eight hours to get to Stansted, and so it was 9PM in Montréal and 3AM in London. He sighed in relief that he could sleep until 1PM the day after, he knew he would get tired.
He bought a first class ticket for a train and it took him to London. It was dark, he could barely see anything and he was alone where he sat. He was happy about that and picked up his iPod from the pocket of his jacket. Sum 41 filled his ears during the one hour it took to get into London. He then took the underground train to get to the hotel in Kilburn. A tired man sat in a chair in front of a computer waiting for him. He checked in and went up the stairs to the third floor. His room was beautiful and the bed was big. He wished that Chuck was there with him. If he was, they’d have hot sex immediately. He watched the clock, it was 4.15AM. Chuck wasn’t asleep yet, he knew that. He dialed the number home with his phone and waited for the beautiful voice he was about to hear soon.
“Hi baby, are you in London now?”
“Hi yourself sexy. Yes, I am. And it’s almost 4.30 in the morning here.”
“Oh, maybe you should sleep. When are you starting tomorrow?”
“At three. So I can sleep until one or something. Just wanted to let you know that I’m okay.”
“Okay, I can sleep now when I know that you’re fine. Love you, sweet dreams.”
“Love you too.”
They hung up and David went to his bed. He was tired, he felt that now. But he had to see the view first, before he could sleep. He could see Big Ben from his window. It was cool, and sick. David Desrosiers was in London for the first time in his life.
“Oh my God…”
He whispered it silently to himself. He wished that he had someone to share this with. He drag the curtain down and pulled his clothes off. He turned off the lights and then went to bed. He changed the time on his phone and then set the alarm at 1PM.
It was noon when he woke up. Seven and a half hour of sleep what was he was used to. He didn’t care. He had one missed call, from Chuck. He also had a new text, he opened it and red it.
“Good morning sweetie. Just wanted to see if you are okay. Hope you slept well, you know I love you. Lots of kisses from Canada.”
He smiled, but didn’t answer it. He had already forgotten the time in Canada and he didn’t want to wake Chuck up. He went in to bathroom and took a quick, hot shower. He couldn’t help but thinking about what he and Chuck would’ve done in the shower. He didn’t want to think about it, but he couldn’t help. He missed Chuck a lot.
After the shower he drew a towel around his waist and went out to the room to get some clothes. After thinking a bit he chose a black pair of jeans and his pink, favorite shirt. He dried his hair with the towel and then studied himself in the mirror. He looked weird without his makeup, at least he thought so. Chuck thought he was cute. The only time David didn’t wore makeup was at home with Chuck. He was comfortable with Chuck, he could show himself.
He plugged in the hair straightener and started to put on his makeup while he waited for it to get hot. His makeup was only mascara and black eyeliner. Lots of eyeliner. When the straightener was hot enough he started too straight out his hair. It was pretty much only the forelock that he needed to straight out, the back of his hair took him about ten seconds to fix.
“Okay, I guess I’m ready to find H&M at Oxford Street…”
He mumbled it to himself and looked through the window. The building had a shape of a square with the garden in the middle, so he could see the neighbor’s right in front of him. He saw a man; he was shirtless, only wearing jeans. He was holding up some shirts and tried to figure out what to wear. His shiny, brown hear was perfectly fixed and his brown eyes had a beautiful sparkle. David couldn’t stop staring at that man. He was so beautiful. There was something special with him; he wouldn’t get enough of him. He looked like a drug.
It was a long time he felt like that while looking at a man. That special feeling faded away as the time went on with Chuck. It was also weird for him to feel that, he was together with a wonderful man and he didn’t even know who that guy was.
David turned around and went out of the door. He couldn’t stop thinking about that man. Was he going to stay long, or was he leaving today? He wouldn’t care; he had a boyfriend who he loved more than anyone. But he couldn’t stop thinking about that man.
His eyes got caught by a big Starbucks sign and he went in. He ordered a Vanilla Latte (Chuck’s favorite) and waited for a few minutes for it. The door swung open and in stepped that man. The mysterious man from the hotel. He ordered the same as David. Their eyes met as they both looked at each other.
“Sir, you’re latte.”
David shook his head as if he was waking up from something and grabbed it. It was very hot, but he didn’t care. He went to the door; the mysterious, hot man was waiting there for him. He just stood there, staring at David. David felt a bit uncomfortable with that and felt his anger builds up inside him, as it always did when he was uncomfortable with something.
“You’re staring at me.”
“Yes, you’re good looking. And I think I’ve seen you somewhere.”
“We live in the same hotel. I saw you through the window.”
“I think it’s from something else.”
David rolled his eyes, he was used to this. People always said they recognized him from somewhere, and then they remembered he was the new rock star and wanted a picture with him. It always happened, and he was sick of it.
“Yes, I am David Desrosiers. The singer from Canada with the songs You’re love is a lie, Welcome to my life and Save you. No, I don’t have time for taking a picture or something like that right now because I’m busy, but…”
“David, please. I didn’t mean it like that.”
“Then how did you mean it?”
David felt the stress in his veins. He was running out of time. He had to find Oxford Street and get to H&M before 3PM. To make it in time was important for him. He wanted to look good in the Medias eyes.
“You… have a special look. I like that. It’s something you remember. That’s want I meant. What are you doing now?”
“I’m having an interview and a performance in H&M at Oxford Street at 3PM. But I don’t know how to get there.”
“I know how to get there. I love HMV and it’s on Oxford Street. I can take you there.”
“That’s… very nice of you.”
As they looked into each other eyes, David felt his anger disappear. He felt like looking into Chucks eyes, and that feeling was something he truly loved. He waited by the door as the man collected his latte. A few teenage girls stared at David, but David didn’t care. But he thought that he should have taken his sunglasses and a hoodie.
The man smiled at David and said his name was Pierre Bouvier. As David looked into his eyes he felt like he was going to melt. Those eyes were so beautiful, even more beautiful than Chuck’s eyes. It took Chuck about seven months to get into David and really know the real David. For Pierre it took about seven minutes. David felt so comfortable with Pierre. They talked a lot as they went to Oxford Street. It wasn’t so long there; it only took them 20 minutes to get there. David actually never thought about Chuck as they were walking, drinking their coffee and talking about everything. Everything except for their relationships.
“Okay, here it is. You’re about ten minutes early, but I don’t think it matters. Nice to meet you, David Desrosiers from Canada.”
“And nice to meet you too, Pierre Bouvier from Paris.”
They smiled at each other. A sudden feeling went through David’s body. He wanted to kiss those big, pink lips. He wanted it so badly, but he couldn’t. Pierre wrapped his arms around David’s waist. David hugged him back, with no hesitation at all. He felt happy and safe in Pierre’s big arms. He never wanted to let go.
“Okay, I think I have to go. Hope I’ll see you again.”
“Yeah, me too.”
Pierre let go of him and went down the street. David stood there, looking for him and fantasized about how it would be to kiss those lips. Two teenage girls poked him on his shoulder. He turned around with a big smile on his face, wrote two autographs and smiled to the camera. And all he could think about was Pierre’s warm arms.
The interview took him almost an hour, it was a nice journalist and she asked him fare questions. Only about his music and nothing else. The performance went also well. Almost a thousand people were there, even though the famous Swedish singer Darin was there. He didn’t meet Pierre when he went home. A few fans followed him back to the hotel. They talked with him all the way there, but David didn’t talk to them. He thought about Pierre and Chuck.
He collapsed on the bed when he got in there. It was dark and he was hungry. It was 6PM, what was the time in Canada? He didn’t care, he needed to hear his boyfriends sweet voice.
“Yeah, it’s Chuck.”
“Hi babe, it’s me. What are you doing?”
“I’m sleeping. It was a party at Seb’s place yesterday and I got home at 5AM. I’ve been sleeping for five hours or something.  God, have you already forgot everything about me?”
“Yes. Maybe, whatever. Sorry I woke you up, just wanted to hear your voice. I miss you so much.”
“Baby, I miss you too. But you’ll be home in two days. Expect lots of kisses, hugs and hot sex.”
“Of course I am. Especially the sex part.”
“You’re so horny. Love you, talk to you tomorrow.”
“Love you too, sweet dreams.”
He hung up and looked up to the ceiling. What was Pierre doing? How was he? Was he having feelings for David? David fell asleep fully dressed, with the TV on and hungry.

It was the day before David was leaving. He woke up at 8AM and ate his breakfast. He hadn’t talked to Pierre since they met at Starbucks and he didn’t think he would see him again. This day was a day off for him. He went out, first to Starbucks and ordered a Caramel Macchiato. It was his favorite and then he went in to Tesco, a small store beside his hotel. His face was on the new magazines, most of the pictures was from magazines from Canada. He grabbed “The Rolling Stone” and went to pay. He held his head down all the time and hurried back. He ran straight into someone when he got in the lobby.
“What the fuck?!”
“Sorry, David. Hope you’re Macchiato’s okay.”
“Oh, hi Pierre. Yes, it’s fine and you?”
“I’m fine, now when you are here. I was hoping I’d see you again.”
His eyes were so beautiful; David could have died in any second. Pierre was so hot and so wonderful. And that last comment made David melt inside. There was something special about Pierre. Something he hadn’t seen before and wouldn’t see ever again. Pierre really was something special.
“When are you leaving, David?”
“My flight goes at 5AM tomorrow, so I’m out of here 1AM or something.”
“I leave tomorrow too. Can we… do something? Go out for dinner or something?”
“Yeah, sure. Can I come to your room at 5PM or something?”
“Yes, room 312. I see you at five.”
He smiled at David, and David felt like melting again. He danced up through the staircase as Pierre left the building. He felt exited, but also sick. He had a boyfriend who he loved, and he was waiting for him at home. What would happen if anything would happen at the dinner later? David sighed and drank his coffee while reading his magazine. It was a few words about his new song Save you, but that was it. And his announcement that he was gay. He was afraid when he came out for the second time in his life. It was hard enough doing that for his mother. But now the entire world would know. He was happy that Chuck was with him when he came out.
He sighed again while thinking about Chuck. But, maybe this was just a friend-dinner? There was 50% chance that Pierre was gay, and he probably already had a boyfriend/girlfriend. He decided to go on that date. And not care about Chuck. Nothing was going to happen anyway.

He knocked on the door three minutes past five. Pierre opened the door almost at the same time, he must have heard when he came. Pierre had dark blue jeans and a very nice shirt. His hair was perfectly fixed and his brown eyes were shining of exiting and happiness. David had his normal hairstyle, black, tight jeans and a white shirt with a black tie. Pierre leaded in over David and their lips met. David was in shock at first, but then he kissed back. The kiss was full of passion and strong feelings. That kiss was the best kiss of David’s life. Pierre broke the kiss after almost a minute and looked into David’s eyes.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean for that to happen, right now. After the dinner was better, but you are so hot and pretty and I couldn’t stop myself. Sorry.”
“You can do that again, after the dinner.”
They smiled at each other and went out to. The evening was warm and bright. The sun was low, the sky slowly turned black. It was a mix between purple and pink in a few places. It was all so beautiful. David didn’t even thought about Chuck. He wasn’t going to find out about anything.
They went to a restaurant in Camden, it had four stars and Gordon Ramsay had signed the door. People sat out with glasses of wine, but David and Pierre went in. A band was playing violin and other classy instrument while a woman dressed from the 60ths sang something in Italian. A rose was placed on the table. It was a lot of people there, but David didn’t mind about that. It still felt like they were alone there. Pierre ordered a bottle of red wine and then a steak, David ordered a salad with goat cheese. They spent hours there, drinking wine and talking about everything. They held hands all the time and sometimes they kissed. It was near closing time and almost 10PM when they left. They both were a bit drunk but they made it to the underground and then the hotel. Pierre walked David back to his room, and then they just stood there. Deeply looking into the others eyes. David felt like he was drowning or something. He knew that the feeling he had now would never come back again. He was never going to see Pierre again. Because Pierre had his life in Paris and David his in Montréal.
“This was the best night in my life, Pierre.”
“Yeah, same here. I don’t want to go home, I want to be with you. You’re something special. And I’m not saying that because you’re famous because you are something special. I hope that we’ll meet again.”
David’s words got stock in his throat. He didn’t know what to say. He just leaned over and kissed Pierre with more passion and feelings than he ever had kissed before. Their tongs made a dance and they experienced every part of the opposite mouth. David moaned into Pierre’s mouth, his hands were wrapped around his waist. One hand made it up to Pierre’s head and played with his hair. Pierre had his hands on David’s ass and he touched it hard. David eventually broke the kiss and looked into his eyes.
“I have to pack. Here, I’ll give you my number.”
He wrote a note with his number and e-mail and put in the back pocket of Pierre’s jeans. He kissed him quick on his lips and then shut the door in front of him. He packed in a rush while he was crying and then checked out. A taxi picked him up and he was at the airport at 3AM. It was lots of people there and he went to his gate first time they called for it. He was still crying, he had fallen in love in four days. It took him almost a month for him to figure out that he was in love with Chuck. He was confused when he went on the plane. He was also tired; he had been awake for a very long time and knew he would be tired when he got home. He had a trouble of sleeping on planes so he would be more tired when he got home. He pulled out his phone. He had a text from an unknown number.
“Hi baby, it’s Pierre. You’re a great kisser, I hope you know that. I wasn’t expecting to fall in love in London, since I have a boyfriend in Paris. I hope I’ll see you face to face again, maybe next time you come to London? I’ll always remember you, love from Pierre.”
David stared at the phone and then deleted it. He felt now that he was stupid for kissing Pierre like that. Pierre had a boyfriend and so did David. What was wrong with him? He started crying again for cheating on Chuck.
“Hi sweetie, I’ll be home in about two hours. If you don’t pick me up I’m going to scream. I love you so much, you’re my everything. And bring some alcohol to wake me up.”
“I’ll be there, because I love you too. And no alcohol for you babe, but I can bring some Snickers. I’ve missed you so much, my little idiot.”
David ran straight to Chuck’s arms when he got out of the airport. Chuck gave him a Snickers and they kissed for a very long time. They both whispered “I love you” while giving Eskimo kisses.


David spent the rest of his life with Chuck. He became the greatest singer in his life time, but he never saw Pierre again. He spent a lot of time thinking about what would’ve happened if he answered the text that day he left from London. When he lay on his deathbed he thought about that last kiss. When he went into the light he met the man he was supposed to spend his life with. That man was Pierre Bouvier.

THE END

Monday, November 26, 2012

You raise me up

Read the guide before further reading.

Title: You raise me up
Author: Myself
Written: November 2010
Chapter: Stand alone
Pairing: David/Jeff
Rating: PG-13
Genre: song fic
Summary: You raise me up to more than I can be
Disclaimer: Don't know, don't own, didn't happen


“Thank you London! We love you, you know that! Do you want us to come back?”
“YES!”
“Awesome! Have a great night, peace out.”

Pierre waves to the audience and Jeff throw his plectrum to someone who starts crying and screaming. I just roll my eyes and leave the big scene. I can feel how the others are looking at me. I can feel their looks piercing my back. I run as fast as I can to the locker-room and lie down on the couch. I try not to cry, so I close my eyes and start pulling my lip-ring so I can think about something else than my stupid emotions.

I’ve been a bit depressed lately, I don’t know why. It’s just so hard being on tour all the time. It’s been almost five months since I was home. I really want to go home now. All I want to is to sleep in my own bed and be with Jeff. Sure, I’m with Jeff when we’re on tour too, but that’s not the same thing. I want to be alone with him.

I hear the other guys coming to the room and I sit up to drink some water. None of them seems to notice that I’m close to tears. Pierre and Chuck are talking about our next show; it’s in Denmark or something. Stupid name for a country. Jeff and are talking about some girl Sebastien saw in the audience. He thought she was hot and tries to figure out how to get into her pants. I want Jeff to talk to me. I want him to know how I feel.
I bite down on my bottom-lip and try to ignore the stabbing pain in my chest and stomach. I take another sip from my water and close my eyes.

“David, I’m talking to you!”
“What…?”

Pierre’s looking straight into my eyes and he seems angry. Or even worse, pissed off. What did I do to him? I gulp and look back into his dark eyes.

“What’s your problem? That’s the worst show you’ve ever played! And then you just left! What the fuck is your problem?”
“Nothing…”
“Then stop being suck a girl and perform! Fucking diva!”
“Pierre, that’s enough!”
“What, can’t your boyfriend take some words? I just need to fucking tell him to perform better next time! You got a problem with that?”

I sit up and storm out from the room and out in the dark London. A few fans start screaming when I walk by, but I don’t care about them. I just want to get to our hotel and curl up in bed. If I end up alone I’ll cry and if Jeff comes with me I’ll cry and then have sex with him. A black car drive by and I wave to get the taxi to stop.

“Where to sir?”
“Holiday Inn, Camden.”
“Yes sir.”
I turn around when the driver starts taking me back to the hotel and I see Jeff standing there. He looks hurt, but starts searching for another taxi. I turn back forward and answer a few questions that the driver asks me. He doesn’t know who I am and that helps me relax a lot. I can tell if people know who I am or not. They get a sparkle in their eyes when they know that they hang out with celebrities. I finally get to the hotel and I pay the driver seven pounds. Another taxi stops and Jeff climbs out and pays the driver the same amount as I did.

“David, come on. Talk to me.”
“Why? I’m just a diva bitch that sucks at playing bass and sing! Why the fuck would you talk to me?!”
“Did you miss the part where I defended you? Or that I ran after you?”
“Can we talk about this in our room?”

I don’t wait for him to answer, I walk as fast as I can to the elevator and step inside. Jeff runs after me and barely makes it to the elevator before the doors close and we begin our journey to the fourth floor. A few teenagers are in the elevator as well and they get the little sparkle when they turn around and look at us. It looks like they’re about to ask for our autographs or something, but Jeff gives them the look that says “please, we need a moment, can we do this tomorrow?” and they shut their mouths and just stare at us. The door slide open and we walk to our room, it’s not far from the elevator.

“David, what’s wrong with you?”
“What’s wrong with me?! Ask fucking Bouvier what’s-“
“I didn’t mean it like that, I’m sorry. Is there something bothering you? You haven’t been yourself lately. Please, I want to know.”

I close my eyes and feel tears streaming down my face. I turn around so Jeff won’t see them. I don’t want him to see me like this. I run into the bathroom and lock the door.

“David, please! Talk to me, come on!”
“I want to be alone…”
“Bébé, please.”

I smile when he uses the French word but the smile faint as soon as I remember Pierre and the emotions I felt before. I really want to go home. I know it’s only a month left, but I want to go home now. I’m not sure how to tell Jeff about that, maybe he’ll get mad at me or tell me how pathetic I am? That he agrees with Pierre and then they start searching for a new bass-player? Or that Jeff starts searching for a new boyfriend? I start crying even more and I start pulling at the sleeve for my shirt. It’s been years since I cut myself. And Jeff will be really angry and disappointed with me if I cut myself now.

But I need it. I need it so bad. My insides are burning. I need some kind of release right now. And cutting me is the only way. People who say that there are other ways out of this don’t know a thing. They don’t know what it is to put a razorblade to your skin and make the blood drip out from your body. They don’t know how relived you feel when you see the blood. And they don’t know how guilty you feel after. I wish people could understand that better. And I wish people could think before they open their ugly mouths.

“David, please come out and talk to me. I wish I could take Pierre’s words back. I wish there was some way I could take your pain away. I know you were hurt by Pierre and I understand that, but you know what a dick Pierre can be sometimes. He never thinks before he opens his big, ugly mouth.”
“Jeff, I don’t want to talk to you. I want to be alone.”
“Okay. I’ll just sit out here and talk to myself then.”
I just sigh and continue to stare at my arm. I almost start to laugh when I here Jeff talking. He’s talking to himself. I smile and listen.

“I have a boyfriend, whom I love very much. I can’t imagine my life without him. His name’s David Desrosiers and I love every single part of him. I love how adorable he is when he’s asleep and how he talks in his sleep. I can sit and watch and listen for hours. And I love the way he kiss me and hold me. I’ve never told him how special I feel when I’m with David. He makes me feel like the only guy in the room, in the world.”

I smile and pull my sleeve down and open the door. Jeff’s sitting beside the door with his knees pressed to his chest, his arms are wrapped around them.

“You love me that much?”
“Mhm.”
“Sorry I just took off. And for snapping at you. And for being such a dick.”
“I forgive you.”

I slide down the wall and sit next to Jeff. I let my head rest against his shoulder and I take his hand. He’s stroking my hand with his thumb. It sends chills down my spine and I smile.

“What are you smiling about?”
“Nothing… I’m just happy when I’m with you.”
“I’m happy with you too. I love you so much, do you know that?”

I simply nod and close my eyes. I never… expose myself like Jeff just did by telling me how special I make him feel. But I know that he needs to know that I feel the same about him. I take a deep breath and hug Jeff’s hand even harder.

“I love you, Jeffy. You make me feel special too. You’re so kind and special to me, especially when I have my bad days. You make me feel like I walk on mountains. Nothing’s impossible when you’ve cheered me up. I’m strong when I’m on your shoulders; you raise me up to more than I can be. I don’t show so much but-“

I’m being cut off by Jeff’s lips on top of my own. I close my eyes by instinct and I part my lips a little, just to give Jeff’s tongue access to my mouth. I moan when I feel his tongue lightly stroking mine and I press my body closer to Jeff’s. We moan into each-others mouths and I almost start crying again when Jeff’s lips are leaving mine.

“Do you want to tell me what’s been up with you recently? I’m worried about you…”
“You don’t have to worry. I promise.”
“Please, tell me the truth. I can see it in your eyes. I’ve been your boyfriend for as long as I can remember, so please tell me.”

I sigh and stand up again. I can feel Jeff’s emotions. He’s very confused and worried. He doesn’t need to worry about me. I go into the bedroom-part and pull my clothes off until I’m only wearing my zebra-boxers. Jeff’s appearing in the door and I smile to him.

“Come here, it’s easier to talk to you in bed.”
“Okay…”

Jeff’s slowly pulling his clothes off and I shiver when I see his beautiful body. His confident is very hot. I ignore that tonight though; I really need to talk to Jeff about this. And hopefully he’ll help me.
I lie down on the left side in the bed and Jeff climbs in to join me. He puts his arms around me and I press my body close to his. He sighs in my ear and places a sweet kiss on my cheek. I sigh and close my eyes when I feel Jeff’s thumb slowly rubbing my stomach.

“I’m home-sick. I really want to go home. I want to be alone with you.”
“We’re alone now…”
“I mean in OUR bed, in our house where we can do whatever we wants and without thinking about the other guys. It has been so long since we were home. And I really want to go home.”
“It’s barely one month left of the tour. We’ll be home soon…”
“I almost cut myself before, in the bathroom. I didn’t do it though.”
“Do you promise?”
“I promise.”

He sighs with relief and I smile when I feel his lips on my cheek once again.

“I yelled at Pierre before. And he’s really sorry, I promise you that.”
“Hope you didn’t hurt him.”
“I didn’t, but I will next time.”
“I love you.”
“I love you too.”

I move my body a little bit closer, I can feel Jeff’s beating heart against my back and I sigh happily. We aren’t going home yet. But we will soon, and I can’t wait for that. But first, we’re going to that stupid Denmark-country and the rest of north Europe. But then we’ll go home. And Jeff and I will be alone in our cozy apartment and have hot sex all night.
Speaking of sex…

“Just so you know, you have to take care of what you’ve caused in my boxers.”
“Hmm, I think I can do that…”

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Convicted murderer

Read the guide before further reading.

Title: Convicted murderer
Author: Myself
Written: August 2010
Chapter: Stand alone
Pairing: David/Pierre
Rating: NC-17
Genre: AU
Summary: I want you to live, but... you can't.
Disclaimer: Don't know, don't own, didn't happen


Hello, my name is David Phillippe Desrosiers and I’m 75 years old. When I was 30 years old I murdered my last boyfriend. His name was Pierre Charles Bouvier. When I was 15 I murdered my first boyfriend. I’ve murdered all my boyfriends, 25 boyfriends. I just needed to do it. I didn’t want to get hurt. So instead, I hurt them.
I loved Pierre, more than anything. He was the one I was living and breathing for. He was different than the other boys. I didn’t want to kill him… I was 32 when I got into this prison in Montréal and I will be here until the day I die. I turned myself in when Pierre finally was out of blood, he was dried out. I was just convicted for that single murder. No one knows how many people I’ve actually killed. And maybe that’s for the best, because if anyone had known I would probably have been convicted to death. And I have never wanted to die like that.
Now, I would like to share what Pierre and I had and why I had to kill him.

I was naked in my bed, it was almost 11AM. Pierre was next to me in the big bed, he was still asleep. I watched him sleep, he looked so adorable. I smiled and gently stroked his cheek. That made him opens his eyes. The smile was still on my face.

“Good morning, sleeping beauty.”
“Good morning… what time is it?”
“Almost 11AM.”
“Shit, I fell asleep at five…”
“I know… sorry for waking you up.”

He smiled and shook his head. He looked so tired, but that made him even more adorable. I pulled my cover off and put his over both of us. Our legs were intertwined, I took his soft hand and intertwined our fingers a swell. He looked into my eyes. His brown eyes made me melt inside. I really wanted to stay with him.
We laid there quite while looking into each other’s eyes. I didn’t knew what he was thinking, but I knew what I was thinking about. I thought about my 24 previous boyfriends. What I had shared with them and what I did to them.
Also, when I looked into those beautiful eyes I knew what I wanted. I didn’t want to kill this beautiful man. I wanted to have a life with him. A life where we could get married and have kids. I wanted to have a beautiful life with him. This man didn’t deserve to die.

“What are you thinking about, David?”
“That I love you. And what are you thinking about?”
“That I’m hungry.”
“Let’s eat something.”

We got up out of bed and stood up. We both were naked. Pierre looked so beautiful when he was naked. I went around the bed until I was standing next to him. Gently, I pressed my lips on his. He kissed me back and wrapped his arms around me. My hands gently stroked the sides of his body as he played with my hair and my nipples. I giggled into his mouth and pressed myself closer to him. When my penis touched his penis like that, Pierre smiled and parted our lips.

“Baby, I’m too tired to play with you.”

I just smiled and bent down to the floor to pick up my boxers. So did Pierre and we went out of the bedroom out to the kitchen. Pierre made some bacons and scrambled eggs while I toasted bread. Eventually, our breakfast was ready and we sat down and ate it together. It was quite and romantic.
Months passed by, I never felt the need of killing Pierre. The only feeling I felt around him was love. I loved him more than anyone I had loved before. I was driving home from work and dropped by the cemetery. No one else was there. It was a small cemetery; I was alone almost every time. I went straight to the newer graves and stopped by a simple grey stone. The only thing that was there was the name and the dates of birth and death. I smiled to the grave. “Charles-André Comeau. Born in September 1979, dead in August 2009. May God be mercy with his soul.” I kissed the stone and then walked away.

I heard some sobs when I got inside the door. They follow by a small cry. It came from the bedroom. I walked in there, and on the floor sat Pierre. He looked in a book, a book where I kept pictures of my old boyfriends. What they looked like when I first met them, how they looked like when they were dead and how I killed them. I was frozen; I didn’t know what to do. Pierre got to the 25th page and saw a picture of him. Nothing stood about him. Eventually he turned his head and looked at me. He looked scared to death.

“Don’t come any closer.”
“Pierre…”
“Shut up! David, what the fuck?! When were you planning on killing me?”
“I don’t want to kill you. I love you.”
“Yeah, right. And Santa Claus is for real.”
“It’s true…”
“Shut up with that crap! I’m calling the police. You’re sick.”

He turned to pick up his phone from the floor. I grabbed a book on his bedside table and hit him in the head.

When he woke up he was tied in the bed, with no clothes. I sighed and looked at him. I didn’t want to kill him. Why did he have to find the book? Why was he so curious? Couldn’t he be a normal boyfriend and don’t care about my personal things? Sighed once again and played with the knife in my hand.

“David…”
“I never wanted to kill you. I love you so much.”
“You don’t have to. We can forget this, get over it.”
“No, we can’t.”

I cried and sat beside him on the bed. I stroked his cheek and played with his hair. Pierre looked so scared. He looked like he thought I was going to rape him. Slowly, I bent over and gave him a kiss. He didn’t kiss back, but that didn’t stop me. I licked his lips and begged for a kiss back. Eventually he did. It wasn’t a normal kiss. It was a goodbye kiss. A kiss that said that we were never going to kiss again.

“I love you, Pierre.”
“You know that I love you too…”
“I’m turning myself in after I’ve killed you. I promise.”
“David…”

He never said anything more. I cut him in the neck and met artery immediately. I knew it was only a matter of seconds. He looked chocked. After a minute he was completely dried out. Pierre Bouvier had ended his life, 31 years old. In 15 years I had killed 25 people. I burned my book and walked out of the house. Straight to the police office.

So now you know what I did. This is the last time I tell anyone what happened the day Pierre Bouvier died. Tomorrow when the guards find this letter I will be dead.
And when I end my life I hope that God will be mercy with my soul and that the people I killed will forgive me. Especially Pierre. I hope that I can live with him in the next life. Forever, married and with two kids.
I look at the razorblade and cut my neck artery, I will die the same way as Pierre.

Don't ever leave me


Read the Guide before further reading.

Title: Don't ever leave me
Author: Myself
Written: November 2010
Chapter: Stand alone
Pairing: David/Chuck
Rating: R
Genre: AU
Summary: Don't ever leave me, Chuck. I can't live without you.
Disclaimer: Don't know, don't own, didn't happen

“Hi baby, were have you been?”
“At the hospital, couldn’t stop coughing and then I lost my breath.”
“Oh my God, are you okay?”
“I’m fine David.”

I smile to Chuck and grab the remote on the table to change the TV to something better than the news. I hate watching the news, that’s more Chuck’s thing. And since Chuck wasn’t home when it started, he doesn’t get to watch it. Yes, I’m a very mean boyfriend sometimes.
Chuck comes and sits down with me in the couch. I smile to him and give him a quick kiss on his lips. The kiss is very short, but it’s romantic. All Chuck’s kisses are romantic. I love being kissed by him. When the kiss i finished, I lean my head to his shoulder and I close my eyes. I feel so comfortable with Chuck. He has been my boyfriend for five years, I love him so much. I can’t imagine my life without him. I always cry when I try to imagine my life without him.
I feel Chuck’s arms wrapping around my body, I snuggle my face into his chest and smell his shirt. It smells so good. It smells like Chuck.

“Chuck, promise me you’ll always hold me like this.”
“I promise.”
“And promise you won’t leave me, ever.”
“I promise, I will never leave you.”

I smile when I think about that day. My insides are crying with pain, but my mouth and eyes are smiling. I was happy in that moment, in Chuck’s strong arms. I wish we could go back to that moment. We both were happy.
The happiness didn’t last for very long though, a month later Chuck got a call from his doctor. And he told him that Chuck had lounge cancer. I remember how we both cried. We lay on the bathroom floor and cried our insides out. None of us could believe it.

“David, sweet heart. What are you thinking about?”
“You. And our happy days.”
“Our days can be happy again. I’m starting to feel better. And I promise you, we’ll get married when I’m out of here. The first thing we do.”
“I love you, Chuck.”
“I love you too.”

Chuck both looks and sounds tired. It’s almost 10PM so he should be asleep by now. I’m staying at the hospital with him tonight. The doctor’s says that Chuck’s time is almost done. He’ll be dead really soon and I have to be here with him. I give him a quick kiss on his lips and look at the papers by his bed. Its DNR papers. Do not resuscitate. If something happens with him, they have to let him die. I don’t want him to die. I want us to get married and have beautiful kids. I want us to get old and argue about cookies and presents for our grand-children. He’s not even thirty years old. He can’t now. That’s not fair.

“Good night Chuck, I love you so much.”
“I love you too David. I’ll see ya tomorrow.”
** ** ** **

It’s the middle of the night when I wake up. I hear a very annoying noise. It sounds like beeps. Fast beeps, it won’t stop. I open my eyes and I almost start screaming. It’s Chuck’s monitor that’s making the sound. His heart-beat is slowing down. Really fast. His blood-pressure keeps dropping with his heart-beat. Chuck’s almost dead. He can’t leave me. He promised me he would never leave me. The lines are going flat, a question mark replaces the number that before showed his heart-beat. Chuck’s dead. He can’t be...
I take the grey thing from his finger and attach it to my own index-finger. The monitor starts beating again. It’s counting my beats this time. I wipe away a tear that escaped from my eye and lie down besides Chuck. I put his arms around my body and snuggle my face into his chest.

“Never let go of me...”
“Hi, I heard the monitor. Is he okay now?”
“Yeah, we’re both fine.”
“Oh, good. I got really scared.”

I smile to the nurse and she closes the door to Chuck’s room again. My own smile faints as I look at Chuck. His eyes are closed, his lips are slowly turning blue and he’s so pale. His body is slowly turning stiff; hopefully they won’t get his arms away from me. I gently kiss Chuck’s cold lips and then lie back down with my head on his chest. I really miss his comforting heart-beats.


“David, sweetheart. You have to wake up now.”
“What...”
“David, honey, open your eyes.”

I slowly open my eyes. Three nurses and one doctor are watching me. They all look really sad. Someone has taken the grey thing away from my finger and turned off the monitor. They have also removed all the things from Chuck’s body besides his shirt. Why did this happen? Why Chuck?

“Sweetheart, you have to let go. We have to take him away...”
“No. He promised he would never leave me. That he would always hold me...”
“David...”

I shut my eyes closed again and ignore what they’re saying. I focus on the memories that are coming back to me. I remember all the sweet kisses, all the hot kisses. I remember all the fights we had and how good it felt when we made up again. The thing I remember the most are the nights. I remember the sweet kiss on my forehead and then I got a kiss on my lips. That won’t ever happen again. Tears are streaming down my face, I can’t control them.

“Sweetie, calm down. You have to get up from the bed.”
“I don’t want to...”

They shouldn’t be talking to me. They don’t understand this. They don’t understand the stabbing pain. It feels like someone ripped my heart of my body. It hurts so fucking much that I don’t know what to do. All I want to do is cry until my body can’t take it anymore. I want to be with Chuck. I want him to hold me again.

“David, come on. You have to let him go.”
“He promised he would never leave me.”
“Sweetie, look at me. Chuck hasn’t left you and he will never leave you. He will always be in your heart and you will always remember him. He’s your guardian angel now. He will never leave you, he’s always with you.”
“Do you think so?”
“Yes I do. Come, you have to get up. It’s time to let him go.”

I wipe away the tears and start freeing myself from Chuck’s stiff body. I struggle with it for a while, but I get free from the cold body. I look at him again. This isn’t Chuck. Chuck is always happy and smiling. He has beautiful hair and always tells me to see the good things with life. This looks like... a doll. A doll that looks like Chuck. The doll that looks peaceful and asleep.

“He’s gone...”
“Come here sweetie. Let’s get you out of this room.”

I look back one last time. One nurse puts a white blanket over Chuck’s body. He really is dead.

** ** ** **

It’s our sixth anniversary today. And its four months since Chuck died. How could he leave me? We promised each other we would be together forever.

“Hi baby. It’s our day today. I’ll see ya soon, I know I will. I miss you...”

I’m at his grave. His stone has a natural shape. It looks like it just fell out from a cliff or something. It’s the most beautiful stone in the whole cemetery. I can’t stay long today. Usually I sit and talk with Chuck for hours. But not today.

“I can’t stay long today. Just wanted to bring you some flowers. I love you.”

I drop the flowers to the ground and walk away. I get in my car and drive home as fast as I can without being stopped by the police. I lock the door when I get in and run into the bathroom. This home still smells like Chuck. Sometimes I still think that he’ll be next to me when I wake up. But he’s never there. It’s just dreams.
I’m filling the tub with hot water and pull my clothes off. Hopefully Chuck won’t be too angry with me. And I hope my mom will understand this.

I sit down in the tub; the hot water sends chills up and down my spine. The letter is placed beside the tub and on top of that is a razorblade. I grab it and put it against my left wrist. I carve five letters in the skin and then i start cutting the right wrist. I drop the razorblade and I feel really dizzy. The last thing I see is the red water.

The light is so strong. I flow right into it and I smile when I see who’s there and waiting for me.

“Took you long enough.”
“I thought today would be a good day to meet you again.”
“I love you.”
“I love you too.”

Chuck smiles to me and our lips meet in a sweet kiss.

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